Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
I’m afraid
The mirror doesn’t flinch when I peel back the day
It shows what’s stayed too long under borrowed skin
I learned the language of margins and biopsy ink
Waiting rooms hum like engines that never lift off
I count the hours by fluorescent buzz and paperwork
By the way fear learns my name and keeps it
Every scrape of metal in my mouth tastes like odds
Every promise sounds rented, month to month
Cancer spreads, quiet and exact
No sirens, no drama, just arithmetic
It takes a little at a time and calls it patience
I stay standing, but the floor keeps moving
Friends speak of bravery like it’s a light switch
I nod, pocket the word, don’t turn it on
I’ve seen strength bend until it’s just leverage
I’ve seen faith sweat when the gloves come off
If this is a war, it’s fought with calendars
With skin that remembers every insult
I don’t need a hero, I need a morning
Where the pain doesn’t clock in early
Lower the room, let the noise fall away
Sit with me where the breath is enough
I’m tired of fighting verbs and numbers
I want a sentence that doesn’t bruise
Put your hand where the fear keeps hiding
Not to fix it, just to stay
Some nights the bravest thing I do
Is let the quiet hold me up
Heal my soul, not the headlines
Not the scans, not the scores
Heal the part that keeps showing up
When the body asks for more
I don’t need angels or a finish line
I need time to mean something again
Teach my heart to rest without quitting
Teach my skin it can still be home
If hope is a muscle, let it twitch
If peace is real, let it sit
I’ll take small mercies that don’t announce themselves
I’ll take a night that doesn’t argue
Cancer spreads, that’s the truth I carry
Heal my soul, that’s the work I choose
I walk both lines, I don’t pretend otherwise
I stay here, breathing, doing the next right thing
Until the body and the spirit learn
They’re on the same side again
Tick tock
Tick tock
I
I am afraid
If there’s a god above or the fates below
Some divine power that I’ll never know
Till the time has come and I just let go..
Heal me
I’m begging you heal my
Heal my soul