Mouthful of Nails

Mouthful of Nails

Verse 1 Alarm is screaming in the dark
First thought is missing every mark. Water spot is watching down
While I drag myself around. Floor is cold beneath the feet
Smell of sugar, stale and sweet. Phone is flashing
names scroll by, People aiming for the sky.

Verse 2 Jaw is tight and feels all wrong
Clenching on it all night long. Brush is scraping on the gum
Spitting pink and feeling numb. Mirror shows a jagged face
Eyes are looking out of place. The noise begins
the greatest hits, Tearing me to little bits.

Pre-Chorus Bite the tongue until it bleeds
Silence is the thing it needs. Stand there with the iron taste
Staring down the empty waste.
Chorus Wake up with a mouthful of nails
Spit them down the metal rails. Every sharp and jagged thought
Every battle I have fought. I am not healed
I am not clean

Not a picture for a screen. Just standing in the kitchen rain
Breathing through the heavy pain.
Verse 3 Bus is jerking on the track
Knuckles white and cracking back. Street is grey as water dish
Nothing here is what I wish. Picture stepping in the lane
Testing out the metal chain. Just a reflex, not a plan
Doing only what I can.

Pre-Chorus Then I think of how you stood
Did the best of what you could. Said the world can’t take me out
Even with the fear and doubt.
Chorus Wake up with a mouthful of nails
Spit them down the metal rails. Every sharp and jagged thought
Every battle I have fought. I am not healed
I am not clean

Not a picture for a screen. Just standing in the kitchen rain
Breathing through the heavy pain.
Bridge Tonight I stand beside the sink
Give myself the time to think. Scrolling past the lucky few
Who found a way to make it new. I want to break the mirror glass
I want to let the anger pass. Instead I rinse the rust away
And text my brother, “I’m okay.”

Outro If I make another week, It won’t be soft
won’t be meek. Just a pile of nails and rust
Refusing to return to dust.