I Get Why Someone Goes Postal
Alarm hits, I’m already late, tie crooked, nerves shot to hell,
inbox full of bullshit meetings with subject lines that yell.
Boss wants five reports on numbers he’ll never read,
while my rent climbs higher than the paycheck I bleed.
Stand in line at the bank just to hear “You’re overdrawn,”
fees stack up higher than the hope I had at dawn.
Bill collector on the phone breathing down my neck,
like I planned this poverty just to cut them a check.
I get why someone goes postal in a fucked up world like this,
when every day feels rigged and loaded, one long near miss.
I’m not gonna pull that trigger, I just grind my teeth and choke,
but I feel that pressure building every time life makes a joke.
Layoff rumors in the break room, whispers near the door,
“restructuring” emails hitting harder than war.
They call it right-sizing while they gut the floor,
then smile for a photo in the lobby once more.
Traffic jam in the rain, wipers squeak in time,
radio full of ads telling me I’m past my prime.
Billboard selling miracles I’ll never afford,
while my gas light flickers like a middle finger to the Lord.
I stand in that checkout line while the screen says “card declined,”
with a stranger behind me sighing like I ruined their whole damn time.
Cashier gives that pity look that cuts sharper than a blade,
and I swallow every curse word for the minimum I’m paid.
Family group chat buzzing, “When you coming by?”
Hard to visit happy houses when your own roof might fly.
Landlord hints “We’ll need to talk about a raise,”
I fake a smile, nod along, swallow gasoline for days.
Junk mail fills the mailbox with offers I can’t touch,
“pre-approved for heaven” if I just sign and clutch.
Student loans like anchors, interest laughing in my ear,
every notice feels like someone carving “failure” in the mirror.
I keep my hands on strings instead of on a loaded gun,
pour the hate into the verses till the pressure comes undone.
Yeah, I see how someone snaps
when every day feels rigged and cold,
I just scream it through a melody so it doesn’t take my soul.