Cancer Spreads Heal My Soul x Matches in the Rain (Saint Jude) (Mashup)
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
I’m afraid
[Hey Jude… don’t make it sad…]
[patron of hopeless cases
and of things despaired of… pray for me who am so needy…]
The mirror doesn’t flinch when I peel back the day
It shows what’s stayed too long under borrowed skin
I’ve been living off the change that falls between bad days
Finding grace in small mechanics, borrowed light, bent nails
I count the hours by fluorescent buzz and paperwork
By the way fear learns my name and keeps it
When nothing worked, something still answered the door
Not with thunder or instruction,
just a reason to stay a little more
Every scrape of metal in my mouth tastes like odds
Every promise sounds rented, month to month
You didn’t promise exits or a cleaner sky
You showed up as friction, as a stubborn why
Friends speak of bravery like it’s a light switch
I nod, pocket the word, don’t turn it on
Every time the math said quit, the ground said stand
I don’t know who to thank, so I thank the hand
(Chorus – A x B)
Cancer spreads, quiet and exact
No sirens, no drama, just arithmetic
This is me saying thanks for the quiet saves
For the nights that didn’t win, for the scars that stayed
It takes a little at a time and calls it patience
I stay standing, but the floor keeps moving
I don’t need a name or a frame to believe
Somebody kept a light on when it wasn’t supposed to be
(Verse – soften)
Lower the room, let the noise fall away
Sit with me where the breath is enough
I’m tired of fighting verbs and numbers
I want a sentence that doesn’t bruise
Put your hand where the fear keeps hiding
Not to fix it, just to stay
Some nights the bravest thing I do
Is let the quiet hold me up
(Chorus – Soul)
Heal my soul, not the headlines
Not the scans, not the scores
Heal the part that keeps showing up
When the body asks for more
(Verse – B)
I’ve learned how hope hides in unmarked rooms
In the space between panic and making it through
I’ve learned how mercy doesn’t look polite
It looks like surviving another night
If you’re listening without wanting credit
If you trade in lost causes and never admit it
Then you already know why I’m still here
Gratitude sharp as it is sincere
(Bridge – A x B prayer mix)
If this is a war, it’s fought with calendars
With skin that remembers every insult
If hope is a muscle, let it twitch
If peace is real, let it sit
I don’t need a hero, I need a morning
Where the pain doesn’t clock in early
I’ll take small mercies that don’t announce themselves
I’ll take a night that doesn’t argue
[“I promise to make your name known…”]
[Jude, don’t make it bad… take a sad song and make it better…]
(Climb)
If there’s a god above or the fates below
Some divine power that I’ll never know
Till the time has come and I just let go…
Aim the strength at what’s left of me
(High Chorus – stacked)
Cancer spreads, that’s the truth I carry
Heal my soul, that’s the work I choose
So if there’s a favor left unspent
Let it land where the damage went
Not louder days or borrowed shine
Just steady hands and a little more time
I don’t need heaven, I need this hour
I don’t need saving, I need staying power
(Outro – hush)
I don’t need angels or a finish line
I need time to mean something again
Teach my heart to rest without quitting
Teach my skin it can still be home
Cancer spreads, that’s the truth I carry
Heal my soul, that’s the work I choose
I walk both lines, I don’t pretend otherwise
I stay here, breathing, doing the next right thing
Tick tock
Tick tock
I
I am afraid
If there’s a god above or the fates below
Some divine power that I’ll never know
Till the time has come and I just let go…
Heal me
I’m begging you, heal my
Heal my soul
[Hey Jude… don’t make it sad…]
Keep me… me.