Animal Confessional
I want to fuck you
like a confession
said through gritted teeth
and bitten lips
Pull every secret out of your throat
with my hands on your hips
drag you down
where halos melt
and good intentions choke
on spit and sweat
You lean against the wall
like a dare in boots
and a crooked grin
eyes locked on my throat
like you are choosing
where to sink in first
The low end crawling up our legs
sweat and cheap lights
making everybody else blur
but you stay sharp as a blade
pressed slow into my chest
You mouth along to some filthy line
in the music
never break eye contact
and I feel my good intentions snap
like rotten teeth
in the back of my head
I had every reason
not to walk toward you
every promise not to start
this kind of fire again
I walk toward you instead
You say my name
like a sin and a solution
drag the syllables down my spine
until my knees forget
what they’re for
You laugh low when I stutter
hook two fingers in my collar
drag me close enough to smell
all the wrong choices
you’ve made before
You tell me you are bad news
say it with a smile
that makes the warning sound
like a sales pitch
for the exact kind of damage I crave
I tell you I am worse
feel every part of me
that ever tried to be decent
bow its head
to the animal I never learned to cage
We are not here for healing
we are here to burn
two fucked-up saints in a blackout chapel
praying to what we never learn
Door slams
room shrinks
air turns thick enough to chew
we circle each other
like addicts trying to pretend
this is about choice
not need
You trace the edge of my shirt
look at me like dinner and absolution
like you already know
exactly what kind of bones
you will feed
Phones buzzing in pockets
partners calling
lives outside this room
beating desperate fists
on a locked door we won’t answer
You push me back onto the mattress
like a verdict
whisper “we are such terrible people”
I say “good”
and fall
This isn’t romance
this is relapse with a grin
two grown disasters lighting candles
for the god of skin
You dig your nails into my back
like you are trying to write apologies
you will never actually give
I bite your shoulder
hard enough to bruise the life
you will lie to in the morning
just so you can keep it
and still live
We move like a crime scene
being drawn in real time
every gasp another piece of evidence
we will both pretend not to see
You choke out “don’t stop”
like a prayer that sounds a lot
like “destroy me”
and I do
because I want you
to destroy me
Say my name
spit it
curse it
choke on it
Tell me you hate this
then drag me back into it
When sunlight slips through blinds
and turns our wreckage
into something cheap and small
and way too real
we will swear this was the last time
we will mean it
till the next night
we need something strong enough
to kill what we feel