Under The Floorboards Lyrics

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Mental Two Seconds

In Me ( UTF )

I am not ashamed of the person I've become,
The mistakes I've made have shaped who I am,
Change any moment, and I might be undone,
A thousand wasted tears, they’ve sharpened my plan.
I’m not ashamed of the time I’ve squandered,
Each moment that slipped away in a day’s embrace,
Every drop of blood I’ve tasted, my heart’s ponder,
Each time I stood in the midst of life's relentless chase.
And I’m not ashamed of my foolish ways,
Call me foolish if you must, it won’t sway my mind,
It won’t calm the restlessness that stays,
Or halt the blood that drips, one of a kind.
No, I’m not ashamed of what I am,
Not ashamed of the past I carry with me,
Not ashamed of words once spoken, now just a scam,
I’m only ashamed that I never believed in me.
I’m not ashamed to lie for a noble cause,
Or to play the role that shadows my heart,
I’ll force a smile, if that's the clause,
Not ashamed of a heart that’s torn apart.
And let me tell you this, I’m not ashamed to deceive,
Not afraid of darkness, nor of death’s hand,
Not afraid of solitude or the truth to conceive,
I’m only afraid you’ll see the truth I’ve planned.
I can offer all the empty promises,
Hold my head high with practiced grace,
I can meet your eyes with no excess,
But there’s something you’ll never embrace.
I can claim to be unashamed till the end of time,
But the truth is, it’s just warm breath in the air,
I’m ashamed you’ll uncover who I am in my prime,
I’m ashamed you’ll see what I once dared to declare.
And the shadows of the past linger,
Tomorrow I’ll wake alone, again,
Afraid to be myself, my heart’s inner stinger,
So I’ll weave another lie to defend.
And I’m not ashamed of anything, but everything,
That I hide deep within my core,
I’m not afraid to share nothing and everything,
As long as you never explore what’s more.
I am ashamed of the person I’ve become,
The mistakes that are slowly killing me,
Change at any moment, and I’ll succumb,
To a million tears that have tried to destroy me.
I can claim to be unashamed till time fades away,
But the truth is, it’s just warm breath on my lips,
I’m ashamed you’ll find out who I am today,
I’m ashamed you’ll see who I was, my slips,
I’m ashamed that I never truly believed in me.

Dishpan Hands ( UTF )

The sight, it quickly sickens me,
Makes my stomach churn with disdain,
Mayonnaise left clinging to the plate,
She’d scold and say, "When will you change?"
It’s not a complex concept,
Just rinse the dishes when you’re through,
Her complaints never ceased,
Now we're washing for no one, it's true.
Echoes of those moments linger,
From another place and time,
When I wasn’t alone,
Her words lost in the wind’s chime.
I recall thinking she was mad,
"It's nothing," I'd dismiss with ease,
Instead of just complying,
I remained set in my own decrees.
Now the dishwater scalds my hands,
Hot enough to burn my skin,
Scrubbing away the remnants of the past,
As if it could cleanse me of my sins.
My mind drifts to a bleak end,
When I felt my life slipping away,
Stubborn pride and dishpan hands,
These are my remnants today.
As the water rises in the sink,
I’m forgetting it, somehow,
My thoughts wander to another time,
When I thought I had it all figured out.
I told her I just didn’t care,
Said it meant nothing to me,
She took each word to heart,
Believed every line so literally.
Now afternoons are hollow,
And nights stretch on endlessly,
It’s just the dirty dishwater,
That keeps me company.

Everything ( UTF )

Wipe the ashes from your shoulder, I know you’ve faced your share of hell,
Left your dreams along the roadside, gave up on that wishing well.
I only wanted to see you smile, to have that light reach your eyes,
I only wanted to uncover the mystery where your true self lies.
And you only wanted to feel free.
Wipe away those tears now, darling, I see you've held them in for so long,
When I see your smile, those salty tears seem so wrong.
I only wanted to cast the past away, to know just what to say,
I only wanted to guide you through, to make you feel okay.
And you only wanted to see.
I wanted fame and comfort too, to bring the world right to your door,
I wanted to know everything, to give you what you’re longing for.
I wanted to fulfill your dreams, and share in all your schemes,
And you only wanted to dream.
Let me hold you through the darkness, shield you from your haunting past,
Comfort you in silence, and show you what the future casts.
I’m not a knight in shining armor, you're no damsel in distress,
I’m not the weary cowboy seeking rest, you’re no princess, no porcelain doll,
But you are the answer I can’t grasp.
So spread your wings, open your heart to what will be,
I always wanted everything, and you are everything to me.
I can dream away forever as your eyes reflect the candlelight,
A room full of roses can’t make the wrongs feel right.
I only wanted to let you see the way I do,
I only wanted to show you how deeply I view.
And you only wanted to be.
I wanted sunsets and skies of blue,
I wanted stormy nights to curl up with you,
I wanted to grasp everything,
Angels and demons alike.
And you only wanted your wings.
Let me hold you through the darkness, shield you from what haunts your mind,
Comfort you in silence, reveal what tomorrow will find.
I’m not a knight in shining armor, you’re no damsel to be saved,
I’m not the trail-worn cowboy seeking solace, you’re no delicate doll,
But I know you’re the answer I can’t quite understand.
So spread your wings, open your heart to what will be,
I always wanted everything, and you are everything to me.
Lay me down inside your light,
Shine on me tonight,
I wanted your comfort, your warmth, and the key,
I wanted you to know all that’s within me.
And you only wanted to be,
Loved for eternity.
Let me hold you through the darkness, shield you from your memories,
Comfort you in silence, and reveal what tomorrow sees.
I’m not a knight in shining armor, you’re no damsel in distress,
I’m not the weary cowboy seeking rest, you’re no porcelain doll,
But I know you’re the answer I can’t quite comprehend.
So spread your wings, open your heart to what will be,
I always wanted everything, and you are everything to me.

Worth Dreaming ( UTF )

The sun sets on another empty day,
I can hear the wind just outside the glass,
Everything's been said again, and again, and again
Just trying to cleanse the past
I've forgotten about everything,
I can hear you breathe against the pillow,
And we spent the night talking about everything
But there's so many things I never wanted to know
I can hear you whispering
To someone else as you lie sleeping,
I can feel you slipping away from me,
And I don't know anything for sure,
I don't know anything anymore
Why should I even lay down, because to me it's seeming
There's nothing left worth dreaming
We gave a great performance,
No one would even guess,
The academy would surely be proud of us,
We never let it on to all the rest
I reach out and feel the pane,
As the cold breeze blows against the window,
And the knowing’s driving me insane,
Why couldn't we leave it at I don't know
And you swear to me you didn't mean for it to happen,
Why didn't you just turn away from me,
You say it will never ever happen again,
Now it's the only memory
The one memory that fills my mind,
The only one that remains,
Why couldn't you just let me stay blind,
Let me make it through the days
Now I can't lie beside you in this bed,
Knowing I'm someone else inside your head,
I can feel you falling away from me,
My nights are gone to restless days,
You've gone and taken the stars away,
Why should I even lay down, because to me it's seeming
There's nothing left worth dreaming.

Civilized ( UTF )

These are the glory days.
No more need for war.
No more hunger anywhere.
Salvation is falling onto us.
We are civilized.
These are the glory days.
Nuclear deterrents.
Chemical enhancements.
Salvation is failing around us.
We are sterilized.
The human being, obsolete.
Walking stem cell farms
Harvested when organs are needed.
Conformity imploded.
We are neutralized.
These are the glory days.
Doomsday prophecy fulfilled
To cheers from the crowd.
No humans being anymore.
We are sanitized.

I'm feeling..
Mental..
These days.
Not Insane..
Cerebral.
Not Lost in thought,
Lost without it..

Anymore ( UTF )

Let me weave a tale for you,
A tale of life and death,
Where one ventures forth to seek what's true,
Through peril and distress.
A yarn of old time adages,
A story of the light,
That suffocates in the failing pages,
And is lost within the night.
Let me share my wisdom,
And show you there's much more,
Let me predict what will yet come,
And teach you to stand against the storm.
A smoke and mirrors fairy tale,
A wonder with words and prose,
I used to know everything without fail,
I knew what no one knows.
I used to cry out magic spells,
And rattle forth sacred prayers,
I knew the questions no one tells,
And the wonder of the fears.
Then I heard a rattle sound,
A last breath drawn within,
A coldness filled the sullen room,
And my ignorance begins.
What stands beyond the threshold?
Where no story dares to tread,
What creature carries the bitter cold,
And comforts the newly dead?
Why does anger rise inside of me,
When I know it was the end of pain?
Why does the memory terrify me,
And call the nightmares back again?
Why does it touch my every thought?
Why does it feel so wrong?
An end to a painful battle fought,
And now her pain is gone.
Am I so selfish I'd wish her back
To the pain she was to endure,
To this world of faded black,
To face it all some more?
Where is she now, can she see my words?
As I ask her to forgive,
The rattle sound was all I heard,
And I'm left behind to live.
I used to know everything,
I walked the shadows proud and sure,
Now I'm left with an infant’s mind,
I don't know anything, anymore.

No Good ( UTF )

I'm no good for you.
You're no good for me.
Everything will be alright,
Now baby can't you see?
I'm no good for you.
You're no good for me.
But when I hold you in the night,
I can finally believe…
That somewhere down this hallway,
Filled with shattered glass,
Somewhere here between no future and no past,
Something shines around you,
Like the light of a fallen star.
And I'd do anything to be with you,
No matter where you are.
I want you here in my soul,
To see the diamonds in the wishing well,
Even though everyone says
I could make your life a hell,
They say…
I'm no good for you,
You're no good for me,
But it doesn't matter anyway,
Darling can't you see?
I'm no good for you,
You're no good for me,
But I'll love you anyway,
Darling just believe…

Back With a Vengeance ( UTF )

I've got a chill to the bone.
The autumn wind whirls leaves around me,
And I yearn to return home.
I keep looking back.
Memories stalk me day by day,
A poet silenced,
Unsure of what to say.
I want the freezing rain on my skin,
The sudden sting of frostbite in the breeze,
I just need to feel it, feel alive once more,
Standing in the autumn chill, awaiting winter's embrace.
I've been so isolated.
I spent so long in a self-made prison,
My life was confined.
I am weary of self-pity.
My words leave a bitter taste,
It’s time to move forward,
And cease this self-indulgence.
I’ve been in my solitary confinement,
Waiting for a sign of atonement,
Now I’ve grown complacent,
Have I truly paid my dues?
I'm returning with a vengeance.
Everybody has their moments,
Everybody faces a fall,
Everybody has that day when they just
Find themselves hitting the ground,
Everybody has their struggles,
Everybody’s troubles are their own,
Everybody has those times,
When they simply complain and moan.
Everybody feels alone,
Everybody senses the cold,
Everybody walks away at times,
Feeling like they’ve been betrayed.
Everybody lives in their own self-centered sphere,
Everybody believes they’re the only one,
Everybody is haunted by the memories
Of their own words and deeds.
Everybody’s flawed
And distances themselves from society,
Everybody yearns for a place to hide,
To escape into their own fantasy.
I need to escape from here.
Stop holding myself back with my own folly,
A prisoner of my own fears.
I want to breathe the crisp air.
Feel winter’s bite in my lungs,
To find that same exhilaration there,
That I felt when I was young.
I've been hiding from prying eyes,
Waiting for my own revival,
That I’ve embraced my solitude
And accepted my sentence.
Now I'm returning with a vengeance.
Everybody loves to deflect blame,
Everybody claims their innocence,
Everybody can point fingers,
And blame others for their mistakes,
It can’t be their fault,
Others made errors too,
So they lock themselves away,
Avoiding the harsh gaze of scrutiny,
The judgmental eyes,
The sentencing for their flaws.
Everybody imprisons themselves,
Everyone waits for redemption,
Sitting in the darkness,
Hoping for their soul to heal.
Everybody needs to feel the cold,
Everybody serves their own sentence,
Until winter's winds shatter their confinement
And they emerge anew,
We’re coming back with a vengeance.

Someday Bleed ( UTF )

Waking each morning,
There's an empty place I know,
A secret longing,
Reaching for my soul,
I don’t know what happened,
To the person I used to be,
Somewhere in this labyrinth,
I lost touch with me,
And I bleed.
Dreaming each evening,
Visions blur before my eyes,
A dream of deceit,
Living in another's lies,
A grand facade,
A personal masquerade,
Please let me break through,
Let this reflection fade,
And I bleed.
Lost in the catacombs,
The depths of the past,
A soul without a home,
My spirit fading fast,
I bleed.
Just to know I live,
Someday I'll see the end,
Someday I'll discover who I am,
Someday I'll stop pretending,
Someday I’ll learn to live again.
Lost in the catacombs,
The depths of the past,
A soul without a home,
My spirit fading fast,
I bleed.
Just to know I live,
Someday I'll see the end,
Someday I'll discover who I am,
Someday I'll stop pretending,
Someday I will live again.

There's a shadow in the catacombs,
A phantom in the cold recesses,
Something deep inside that no one knows,
A store of memories and stresses,
Walk along the shadowed halls,
And see the forms within,
A haunted vision of it all,
Let the secrets begin,
I bleed.
There's a facade that covers me,
A disguise for the masses,
It’s the hardened shell I show,
Growing brittle as time passes,
Walk along the sharpened glass,
And feel the pain within,
A torn vision of it all,
Let the flow begin,
I bleed.
I bleed in dreams and memories,
I bleed for future days,
I bleed like anyone you see,
I bleed despite my ways,
An irony now shadows me,
You cannot draw blood from stone,
Confusion rises, washes over me,
It contradicts all I've known,
Walk along the cold grave side,
And see the ghosts within,
A deathly vision of it all,
Let the shattering begin.
I bleed.
I bleed in dreams and memories,
I bleed for future days,
I bleed like anyone you see,
I bleed despite my ways,
I bleed and it confuses me,
I bleed yet I'm the stone,
I bleed and the flow is all I see,
I bleed when I’m alone,
I feel the pain and lock it away,
And maintain the stoniness you need,
And when the shadows pass my grave,
I don’t know how I bleed.

NDE ( UTF )

It's curious how the sunlight seems brighter,
The nighttime colder, as I glimpse things unseen before,
Colors are richer, tastes are more intense,
Smells overwhelm, and I’m trapped in between.
The cradles of my past are long behind,
The grave now calls from a future just beyond my reach,
The days of youth have slipped into the void,
Guiding me toward the night.
The pains in my chest dig deeper,
Breath rattles in the high humidity,
Every ache, every joint pain,
A reminder of life’s wonders and horrors.
My mind sees a glow around everything,
An afterimage burned into my eyes,
A constant reminder of my fragility,
A memoir of the night I nearly died.
I hold everyone closer, cherishing each moment,
Though fear grips me each night,
Afraid the reaper might still remember,
And could be lurking nearby.
Close calls and ice cream, sunsets and nightmares,
All treasured in a special place,
Waking to beeping with burns on my chest,
Staring death in the face.
What good are retirement accounts at thirty-nine,
When I’ve had my first heart attack,
Lying in bed under bright lights,
Dreaming of days lost forever?
Wishing, hoping, crying inside,
Without strength to shed a tear,
Feeling every heartbeat struggle,
Drowning within my own body.
I wish I’d known then what I know now,
Spent my time basking in the sun,
Instead of planning for comfort,
I should have lived for joy.
Now my heart beats irregularly,
Circulation faltered, liquid filling my lungs,
No resolution, no turning back,
Only memories of what could have been.
All the kisses I never shared,
The harsh words I spoke,
Every discomfort I caused,
Every time I walked away.
The spring flowers, the child's cry,
The taste of cigarette smoke,
Every wasted night,
Lying restless, stressing over money.
Every smile, each tear,
Moments spent in vain,
The joy I gave to some,
The pain I caused to others.
It’s all just a fleeting moment,
A snapshot of what I called my life,
Replayed in my mind endlessly,
Since I survived that night.
They, always they,
Never a person,
Tell me I need to cope,
Recovery is part healing, mostly hope.
But they’ve never been lost in that moment,
Where you truly believe you will die,
You never recover, never forget,
You just hope for another chance.
To see how bright the sunlight is,
How cold the nighttime feels,
To experience spring’s colors,
Taste the richness, understand it all.
The cradle rocks, babies cry,
A song only they know,
While the grave waits,
It’s not yet my time.
Another day rises, another breath
Enters the damaged shell of my chest,
I must make these moments count,
Create something from nothing, before I rest.
The pain in my chest is a constant reminder,
A nightmare before the dream,
It may be hours or years, minutes or decades,
But I feel it all coming for me.
Every heartbeat recalls that night,
When everything disappeared,
And waking from sleep showed me
Why I can no longer live in fear.
The reaper will find me when my time comes,
But that moment hasn’t arrived yet,
One more chance has been given to me,
To live a life free from fear, nightmares, and regret.
It's curious how the sunlight seems brighter,
The nighttime colder, as I glimpse things unseen before,
Colors are richer, tastes are more intense,
Smells overwhelm, and I’m trapped in between.
The cradles of my past are long behind,
The grave now calls from a future just beyond my reach,
The days of youth have slipped into the void,
Guiding me toward the night.

Rise Above ( UTF )

I can feel the bitter sting of another day spent wasted,
Dwelling on what has gone, tormented by the tragedies lingering too long,
I look out into the shadows left behind me,
Stare into the darkness, see demons yet to find me,
And cry out to the sky, questioning why it all went so wrong.
I gaze at a candle’s flickering flame, dream of prayers and ancient spells,
Cursing, begging, pleading to unseen spirits to deliver me from my hell,
My eyes are trapped within the dancing shadows,
Instead of focusing on the flame’s ebbs and flows,
The haunting doubts linger on, fears I can’t seem to quell.
Every kiss comes with the bitter sting of knowing it will end,
Someday we all feel betrayed by our closest friends,
We can cry about it, let the tears burn our eyes,
Lay ourselves on sacred ground, prone until we die.
Late at night, I reach out in the darkness, finding no one there,
I feel the sadness fill every cell, swear no one cares,
I wrap my arms around the softness of a pillow,
Swearing I’m destined to remain alone,
And with no will to try again, I cry that it’s not fair.
My fingers trace the scars left from my distant youth,
When no one truly knew me, I was adept at hiding the truth,
Blaming the days before for the troubles now,
Letting the past control me, defining me somehow,
Blindly led by misguided words, never seeking peace or proof.
There’s no light without shadows, no day without a night,
Love is just an empty world when taken without a fight,
There is no peace without conflict, no future without a past,
No life comes without death, no first without a last.
I can feel my grave calling with every moment alive,
I forgot to find comfort in just surviving,
As my body degenerates and days slip away,
I need to make another choice, follow a different way,
Break the cycle of living just to die, the life I’ve derived.
We all dwell within the darkest shadows, walk through life’s tragedies,
We all battle against the specter of death, struggle with the night’s mysteries,
It’s not the end of life to truly fear,
It’s wasting the little time given while you’re here,
We all will lose the battle; what matters is how hard you fight.
Every kiss comes with the bitter sting of knowing it will end,
Someday we all feel betrayed by our closest friends.
We can cry about it, let tears burn our eyes,
Lay ourselves on sacred ground, prone until we die.
We can build walls of defense,
Isolated until the pain is gone;
Or rise above with perseverance,
And simply move on.
There’s no light without shadows, no day without a night,
Love is just an empty world when taken without a fight,
There is no peace without conflict, no future without a past,
No life comes without death, no first without a last.
We all have bruises, we all have scars, someday we all will die,
That doesn’t give us just cause to never try.
We can cry out to the heavens to bless our needs,
But unless we help ourselves, we never succeed.
My eyes drift into the candle’s flickering flames, lost inside the light,
Drowning out the shadows while it illuminates the corners of the night,
Everything in my past strengthened me for now,
To rise above this moment and carry on somehow,
Lessons learned, prayers burned, teaching me how to fight.
Life isn’t a mistress to coddle or keep you safe,
It’s the cruelest bitch you’ll meet, twisting every fate.
Every challenge you rise above is strength you store,
To call upon when life decides to test you more.
Nothing is given freely, every breath earned,
Bought with every hardship and every lesson learned.

IDK ( UTF )

I see,
Shadows of the past spread out in front of me.
I hear,
Voices of the past whispering inside my ears.
And I don’t want to face what’s coming someday,
The revelations you always said would hold the truth.
Rosary,
Wrapped around an old dry hand,
The mysteries,
We were never meant to understand,
You said prayers are always answered, but sometimes it’s a no,
Just hold on, and someday we’d all know the way.
I don’t think,
They see all things inside of me,
And I don’t think,
They know how my mind sometimes goes astray
When tested in this way.
I prayed,
For a savior with wings of gold and pearl
To guide me,
Show me some way to survive this world.
Did it fall on deaf ears?
Was there anyone there to hear?
I prayed.
I asked,
For validation or a sign,
Something to show we’re not just wasting time,
Wasting all these precious years in fear.
Why can’t I find my way?
You believed,
You always held that you knew the truth,
It was the power that always saw you through.
But today,
As I watched them lower you
Into what I assume is a cold and lonely grave,
I swear I heard you say,
Jesus saves.
So why can’t he come here and say it to my face?
Because I don’t believe,
Don’t believe I have the strength to make
That leap of faith.

Knocking at my Door ( UTF )

There's something creeping in the air tonight,
A memory of a spirit hidden from the light,
It's not something you can just turn your eyes and see,
But I know there's something haunting me.
There's something coming in the wind tonight,
I don't know whether to embrace it or turn away in fright,
Cross myself and try to hide from the sound,
They always come a-knocking when no one's around.
There's nothing serious, nothing shocking,
I just can't go outside anymore,
When I hear the knocking,
There's a ghost outside the door.
There's something waking me from my dreams at night,
A voice that's hidden just out of sight,
I close my eyes tighter, trying to rest,
And feel the waves of fear all crest.
There's something stalking through the dark tonight,
A nothing that follows me, it's my blight,
A ghost grown from my own memories,
A piece of me that will never let me be.
There's nothing serious, nothing shocking,
I just can't go outside anymore,
When I hear the knocking,
There's a ghost outside the door.
Why won't they just leave me alone?
Memories plaguing me as I've grown,
Nightmares that visit me every night,
Ghosts that walk just out of sight.
There's nothing serious, nothing shocking,
I just can't go outside anymore,
When I hear the knocking,
There's a ghost of my own creation,
Knocking at my door.

No Welcome Back ( UTF )

Mourning by the grave, those tears were never meant for me,
An empty box is all that's laid in the ground for my memory,
They never found my body though they searched for a year,
Even you went to check on me, but somehow I disappeared.
I cursed you with my final breath and swore I'd get you back,
I'd be your karma and your death, I'll stain your soul to black.
You thought you got off scot-free and dead men tell no tales,
Your one mistake was choosing me, the plan destined to fail.
You thought that I was gone for good, such a silly way of thinking,
I've done what you said I never could, tell me when will it sink in?
Constant cravings fill my mind with a hunger for human flesh,
Not the wasted corpses next to mine, I like my produce fresh.
So light the candle, set the plate, invite the reaper in,
I feel the hours growing late, it's time for dinner to begin,
Call the demons home tonight with the promise of a feast,
A sickle for a carving knife, I'll take a side of beast.
Stop saying this cannot be when I'm plainly standing here,
You really thought you were rid of me? You're always dreaming, dear.
'Til death do us part's a fantasy when the devil's by your side,
Someone pass the pepper, please, I'll take another slice.
I think I am disturbing you and I know I'm looking pale,
It might be cliché but it's true, you put me straight through hell.
So I'll return the favor over dinner and a snack,
No fond farewell, no sad goodbye, and not a single welcome back.

Dark Symphony ( UTF )

You look so nervous, cold in my presence,
Standing there in the door,
Did you not expect to see me, there is no mystery,
The time for waiting is no more.
Now wipe away the tears, they will get you nowhere,
They're nothing to me at all,
Invite me in, my dear, or just leave me out here,
It doesn't matter how you stall.
You hear my ancient song, you can feel me all along,
And yet somehow you still try,
To run away from me, to change your destiny,
I'm something you can't deny.
Shall we dance? You should take a chance,
It's just one life you live,
I'm your living shadow, always present, you know,
I don't judge and don't forgive.
I'll sing my song, you just carry on,
Till I carry you away,
When we meet, it'll be discreet,
And it will be your final day.
There are no deals, there's no appeals,
There is no bargaining,
When I call, then that is all,
The end of joy and suffering.
Are we getting jumbled?
Order falls aside,
Everything you've known here,
All the tears you've cried.
Every smile you handed out free,
Every breath you took in vain,
Every note you sang in vanity,
Every passing of the spring.
Every dollar wasted on yourself,
Every saved nickel and saved dime,
Every memory stored on the shelf,
Every broken rhythm and fractured rhyme.
Each and every lie you told,
Each and every truth,
Every time you felt too old,
And claimed life is wasted on the youth.
Every taste lingering too long,
Every sight before your eyes,
Rings a note inside your song,
In the chorus of your life.
Tempo broke, chaotic string,
Harken your last breath,
No shelter in an angel's wings,
When it's time for a dance of death.
From the cradle to the mantle,
From the seedling to the grave,
You always run away from me,
And search for somewhere safe.
My song rings inside you,
Isn't it just tantalizing,
Though the meter's broken,
And the rhythms fragmentizing.
Sing the song of mis-spent,
A haunted memory,
When the reaper's the conductor,
Of your dark symphony.

Crucified ( UTF )

Yesterday's shadows linger, blending with today,
In this maze of anguish, I'm trapped, unable to sway.
You thought I was a troublemaker, a mere spark in the dark,
But if you think you've seen the worst, just wait, there's more to mark.
I’m braced for the storm’s return, though it seems to stall,
No one taught me the art of letting go or the strength to fall.
Voices whisper, tangled in my mind’s fray,
Echoes of a past that refuses to decay.
You thought my wrath was fierce before, well, brace for what’s ahead,
If you saw me as a menace then, you haven’t seen this dread.
I wait for the rush of blood, though it remains at bay,
Unforgiven lessons learned, never to sway.
I weep but my eyes are dry, a facade I must maintain,
Expectations from myself, a perpetual strain.
Caught in this relentless cycle, where truths are lost in lie,
A ghost within my soul, with a fractured heart to cry.
Like a rogue cell, consuming all in my path,
A self-destructive force, my existence a wrath.
You thought I was a problem, but you’ve only scratched the surface,
The flood you expect won’t come; no lesson in my purpose.
I stand crucified, beyond your grasp of redemption,
No guide was given, nor a path for true reflection.
You once saw me as a savior, but that’s a ghost of the past,
If you believed in my resurrection, you were mistaken; it won’t last.
No guide exists for forgiveness or to break the chain,
Look into my eyes, see past the lies, where my soul remains.
Look into my eyes, look out from my eyes,
Beyond the deceit, I am crucified.

I Want ( UTF )

Come to me tonight, and let me sink into your depths,
Let me reveal the desires that stir within,
Feel the sweat form on your skin, as passion ignites,
Close your eyes, and embrace the unfolding night.
I wish to be the spark that makes your heart race,
The breathless reason for your every embrace,
I want to make every muscle tense, every nerve alight,
Be with you in every twist, every turn of the night.
I long to envelop you, to be the darkness that cloaks your sight,
The fear that lurks within your dreams, the nightmare of the night,
I aim to be the haunting presence in your deepest fears,
The shadow that lingers as reality veers.
I’ll be the blood that stains your hands, a mark left behind,
The whisper in the darkness, confounding your mind,
The secret thoughts you bury, the terror that’s bred,
The creature lurking beneath your bed.
I’ll be the consuming dread that fills your thoughts,
Laying you bare, leaving you in a state distraught,
I will feast upon your flesh, let your essence flow through me,
And leave your broken form, hidden where none can see.
I will be the spirit that haunts your deepest nights,
The feeling of being watched when you dim the lights,
The scuttling spider that crawls across your skin,
A reminder of my touch, an obsession that’s set in.
I’ll be the monster, the demon, the fool from within,
Rising from the depths of your unholy sins,
The stains of our encounter upon your pristine sheets,
A curse upon the day our paths did meet.
I’ll be the vampire, my lips upon your neck,
Sinking deep, where there’s no retreat or regret,
I’ll be the blend of pleasure and pain, your agonizing ecstasy,
You’ll learn to crave me eternally.
I wish to be the cause of every skipped heartbeat,
The reason for your breathlessness, the heat beneath,
I want to make every muscle tremble, every nerve sear,
To be with you in every turn, every fear.
I desire to be the shadow that hides you from the light,
The dream that haunts you through the night,
The end of your being, your ultimate fright,
To be the reason for your final breath, and feel your last, terrified night.

hi. these lyrics are provided for reading. singing along is permitted but not recommended, especially in the car, especially in traffic. hi. — bob, Keeper of the Words (unconfirmed)