My Yesterdays

The thunder’s rolling in,
the night is turning dark again.
I’m waiting for the dawn,
waiting for the storms to end.

Every day it seems
it feels too much for me to take,
drowning in myself,
swallowing my own heartache.

How long ago was it —
it only feels like yesterday —
since my feelings stopped,
the emotions went away.
I can’t recall the face,
just the mark left on my heart.
I need to find a way
to finally begin a brand new start.

And there’s nothing left to say.
This is no way to end the day.
So why don’t you stay
and wash away my yesterdays.

I really had no hope,
I believed it all was lost.
Thought the price I paid
could never be worth the cost.
And suddenly today,
that priceless feeling has returned.
I’m forgetting everything,
every lesson my heart has learned.

I am so afraid,
scared to just expose myself,
give myself away
and learn again from someone else.
I can’t even speak,
it’s tearing me apart inside.
How can I see tomorrow
when the past was never rectified?

I don’t want to go reliving my personal history.
I just want to move on, face what this old and crippled world has in store for me.
Today.

My voice cracks, I barely speak.
I’m not used to feeling so weak.
And I think I kind of like it,
I think it’s something that I need —
to finally give myself away
to someone that believes.

And there’s nothing left to say.
This is no way to end the day.
So why don’t you stay
and wash away my yesterdays.
Make me forget my yesterdays.