Catch-22
There’s no escape from the snare of your affections, no loophole, no exit to run,
Just a razor-wire loop around my neck and cock, a trap where nobody’s won.
Every “I want you” is a pitfall, every “I need space” a tripwire in disguise,
Damned if I surrender, damned if I pull away–just another layer of lies.
Your love’s a crooked casino, rigged odds and shifting bets,
Every round I play, the house collects its debts.
You pull me in with that promise–eyes bright as loaded dice,
Then shove me off the table, hearts traded at a criminal price.
A fucked-up tug-of-war with no finish line,
A maze of your hot-cold hands, your tongue’s caustic wine.
We fuck like enemies bargaining terms,
Every orgasm counted in scars that never learn.
Your body is a battlefield–reward, punishment, addiction’s brand–
You say “I love you,” but your meaning is “obey my command.”
Walking away just circles me back to your den,
To claws and rules and the pain that begins again.
Trapped in your snare, I wonder–do you suffer too?
Or did you build this cage just to see if I’d never break through?
Every time I try to leave, your gravity pulls me back down,
A look, a word, a fuck that leaves me drowned.
I orbit you, a planet burning in your hellish sun,
Addicted to the push, the pull, the wreck that’s never done.
The only real rule in your war is this: there are no victors here,
Only survivors bleeding out hope, loving what they most fear.
Fucked if I do, fucked if I don’t,
Your twisted love, what a fucking joke.
Catch-22, in your war of hearts,
Pulled in, torn apart, right from the start.
No way to win, just a twisted maze,
Fucking lost, in your deadly craze.
Catch-22, where lust collides,
Fucked-up rules, in your dark rides.
Catch-22, trapped in your love,
Fucking torn, can’t rise above.
No way out, in your wicked web,
Catch-22, where our hearts bled.
You say you love me, then push away,
Fucking cruel, in this twisted play.
Catch-22, where desire burns,
Fucked-up lessons, love never learns.
Caught in your trap, no way to flee,
Fucking lost, in your mystery.
Catch-22, where fucking stays,
In this loop, fucking endless days.
Catch-22, forever caught,
In your fucked-up war, forever lost.