More.
That’s the whole sermon.
More wine, more noise, more skin, more time.
More of the thing that didn’t fix it last time.
Pull up another chair to the table of never enough—
the feast goes all night,
and the night goes till it doesn’t.
He eats like a man who’s afraid the food will leave him.
Drinks like the bottle holds an answer at the bottom.
Loves like possession. Sleeps like the dead.
Wakes up and starts the whole damn eulogy again.
The body is a temple.
He turned it to a bar.
Every vice a candle
burning for some long-buried star.
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Feast of flies. Feast of flies.
Pull up a throne at the rotting table.
Feast of flies.
Everything looks like hunger
when you’ve forgotten what you’re able
to survive on.
To live on.
To actually feel without
the noise.
December looks like June.
The calendar’s irrelevant
when every day’s a wound you’re padding.
Another round.
Another hit.
Another body in the rotation.
Another morning on the bathroom floor,
calling it a vacation.
He’s not broken—that would mean a clean snap.
This is erosion.
The way a riverbank just quietly
becomes the river.
And the party keeps on playing.
Same song on repeat.
Same faces at the table.
Same mess beneath the feast.
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Feast of flies. Feast of flies.
Pull up a throne at the rotting table.
Feast of flies.
Everything looks like hunger
when you’ve forgotten what you’re able
to survive on.
To live on.
To feel without
the static.
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There’s a photograph somewhere
of him at seventeen,
eating a sandwich on a Tuesday
like a Tuesday was enough,
like a sandwich was enough,
like just being alive in a moment
without filling it up
was something a person could do.
He looks at it sometimes.
Doesn’t recognize the quiet in the kid’s eyes.
Hasn’t been that still since.
Can’t remember learning to be otherwise.
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Feast of flies.
Feast of flies.
Rotten table, golden lie.
Everything tastes like more.
Everything tastes like why.
Feast of flies.
The guest of honor
at his own slow
goodbye.
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