First Time in a Long Time
A year had gone by since the last time and she’d been through the divorce,
And she said she wasn’t sure she was ready but the force,
Of wanting to be ready was stronger than the uncertainty,
She called me because she trusted me in the urgency.
I said whatever you need from the evening is fine with me,
She said I need someone who’ll be patient and she said specifically,
That I was the person she’d trust with the specific vulnerability,
Of the first time in a long time, a sensibility.
First time in a long time after the year of the hard one,
First time in a long time, she picked me and I was done,
Second-guessing the nature of the responsibility,
First time in a long time, the full gentility,
Was required and I had it, I was paying full attention,
First time in a long time, that’s the intention.
She was nervous in the way she’d described and I was patient,
In the way she’d asked and we took everything adjacent,
To the thing itself as slowly as she needed and no faster,
She said after that I’d been the right choice for this chapter.
I said I’m honored you trusted me with it and she said,
She’d been thinking about who and she’d kept coming to my head,
As the person who would receive it the right way and I said,
First time in a long time deserves all that’s ahead.
First time in a long time after the year of the hard one,
First time in a long time, she picked me and I was done,
Second-guessing the nature of the responsibility,
First time in a long time, the full gentility,
Was required and I had it, I was paying full attention,
First time in a long time, that’s the intention.
What followed the first time in a long time was a second,
And a third and an arrangement that reckoned,
With who she was on the other side of the year,
She said she was finding herself again and I said I’m here.
For the finding, she said that’s the right thing to say,
I said I’m not saying it for the saying, she said I know,
First time in a long time, that’s the ago,
That leads to now and she’s here and that’s the show.
A year had gone by since the last time and she’d been through the divorce,
And she said she wasn’t sure she was ready but the force,
Of wanting to be ready was stronger than the uncertainty,
She called me because she trusted me in the urgency.
I said whatever you need from the evening is fine with me,
She said I need someone who’ll be patient and she said specifically,
That I was the person she’d trust with the specific vulnerability,
Of the first time in a long time, a sensibility.
First time in a long time after the year of the hard one,
First time in a long time, she picked me and I was done,
Second-guessing the nature of the responsibility,
First time in a long time, the full gentility,
Was required and I had it, I was paying full attention,
First time in a long time, that’s the intention.
She was nervous in the way she’d described and I was patient,
In the way she’d asked and we took everything adjacent,
To the thing itself as slowly as she needed and no faster,
She said after that I’d been the right choice for this chapter.
I said I’m honored you trusted me with it and she said,
She’d been thinking about who and she’d kept coming to my head,
As the person who would receive it the right way and I said,
First time in a long time deserves all that’s ahead.
First time in a long time after the year of the hard one,
First time in a long time, she picked me and I was done,
Second-guessing the nature of the responsibility,
First time in a long time, the full gentility,
Was required and I had it, I was paying full attention,
First time in a long time, that’s the intention.
What followed the first time in a long time was a second,
And a third and an arrangement that reckoned,
With who she was on the other side of the year,
She said she was finding herself again and I said I’m here.
For the finding, she said that’s the right thing to say,
I said I’m not saying it for the saying, she said I know,
First time in a long time, that’s the ago,
That leads to now and she’s here and that’s the show.